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Impper posted:

germanjoey posted:
so what is the OP of this thread. is it some huge thing impper wrote that everyone else just ignored? i assume so since nothing else in this thread seems to be at all related.

ya i didnt write it but it was the most inspiring & beautiful thing i read in the long time so i thought every1 else should read it! my threads always get hijacked, and joey, if you don't like the sort of threads these things turn into i'll refrain from makin em



its ok. as long as it doesnt degenerate into wddp chat or whatever

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deadken posted:
thats not a maggotmaster post its a fyad thing

yeah it's an actual capn payne post

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well to get it back on track, i really liked this impper

Michel is fifteen. He has never been kissed by a girl. He would like to dance with Sylvie, but Sylvie is dancing with Patrice, and she is manifestly enjoying it. He is frozen. The music penetrates to the deepest core of his being. It is a magnificent slow dance of surreal beauty. He never knew he could suffer so much. His childhood, up until now, had been happy.
Michel will never forget the contrast between his heart, frozen with suffering, and the overwhelming beauty of the music. His sensibility is being formed.



I bet Patrice is black hahaha

There really is nothing worse than that aching, yearning, adolescent disillusion….thankfully I’m a rational actor and have overcome it with bootstraps, drugs, booze, being a dickhead and historical materialism.

#364
Mike Nelson here.
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Lessons posted:
i can't even log in to revleft now because it's demanding i change my password and i have forgotten my old one

you can recover your account with your email

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getfiscal posted:

Lessons posted:
i can't even log in to revleft now because it's demanding i change my password and i have forgotten my old one

you can recover your account with your email


are you gonna post your thread in OI?

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Mike Nelson here.
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Lessons posted:

getfiscal posted:

Lessons posted:
i can't even log in to revleft now because it's demanding i change my password and i have forgotten my old one

you can recover your account with your email

are you gonna post your thread in OI?

i dunno. i will say hello though. i wanted to change my username to Green with Enver... but i just used that as my custom title instead

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Happiness is a pretty strange concept really. Can contentment and the relative absence of pain be described as "happiness" or is some sort of positive joy a prerequisite?

#368
penitent
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im growing to realise that happiness doesnt really exist. by any objective standard my life is going really well & i wouldnt change a thing about it really, but still im not happy
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deadken posted:
im growing to realise that happiness doesnt really exist. by any objective standard my life is going really well & i wouldnt change a thing about it really, but still im not happy



But if your life is going well and you wouldn't change it, doesn't that imply some level of happiness?

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Ironicwarcriminal posted:

deadken posted:
im growing to realise that happiness doesnt really exist. by any objective standard my life is going really well & i wouldnt change a thing about it really, but still im not happy

But if your life is going well and you wouldn't change it, doesn't that imply some level of happiness?

i think there are times i'm very happy, beating somebody in basketball for instance (or more specifically doing well in a team context), having good conversations, meeting somebody and hitting it off, giving somebody an orgasm or conversely somebody making me come, things like that. then there's the rest which is utter shit

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penitent
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i think happiness implies fulfilment, lack of neurosis, and other things impossible under late capitalism
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Impper posted:

Ironicwarcriminal posted:

deadken posted:
im growing to realise that happiness doesnt really exist. by any objective standard my life is going really well & i wouldnt change a thing about it really, but still im not happy

But if your life is going well and you wouldn't change it, doesn't that imply some level of happiness?

i think there are times i'm very happy, beating somebody in basketball for instance (or more specifically doing well in a team context), having good conversations, meeting somebody and hitting it off, giving somebody an orgasm or conversely somebody making me come, things like that. then there's the rest which is utter shit



Yeah all those peaks are great I agree, but is the rest of it really “utter shit”? I mean I know they say that 90% of life in tedium but I’ve kinda made my peace with tedium once I realized that the great eternally-and-constantly-rewarding-life-promises of the capitalist hologram were largely manufactured.

It helps to be able to find joy in a sunny day, a smile from a pretty cool, the heady drag of the day's first cigarette....

If I could drive maybach’s around all day, take coke, and have women want to fuck me on sight I probably would do it and it probably would make me happier, I’m no rick ross or kim jong-un though

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Just accept that y'all aren't happy because you're losers not because of some existential bullshit like you're going on about, and you'll be a lot happier.
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Nippon
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deadken posted:
i think happiness implies fulfilment, lack of neurosis, and other things impossible under late capitalism



blaming capitalism for our misery is childish. pain originates from needs and necessities inseparable from life itself

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Ironicwarcriminal posted:

Impper posted:

Ironicwarcriminal posted:

deadken posted:
im growing to realise that happiness doesnt really exist. by any objective standard my life is going really well & i wouldnt change a thing about it really, but still im not happy

But if your life is going well and you wouldn't change it, doesn't that imply some level of happiness?

i think there are times i'm very happy, beating somebody in basketball for instance (or more specifically doing well in a team context), having good conversations, meeting somebody and hitting it off, giving somebody an orgasm or conversely somebody making me come, things like that. then there's the rest which is utter shit

Yeah all those peaks are great I agree, but is the rest of it really “utter shit”? I mean I know they say that 90% of life in tedium but I’ve kinda made my peace with tedium once I realized that the great eternally-and-constantly-rewarding-life-promises of the capitalist hologram were largely manufactured.

It helps to be able to find joy in a sunny day, a smile from a pretty cool, the heady drag of the day's first cigarette....

If I could drive maybach’s around all day, take coke, and have women want to fuck me on sight I probably would do it and it probably would make me happier, I’m no rick ross or kim jong-un though

i do find joy in those sorts of things, and don't mind tedium so much. the lows are pretty terrible though - the emptiness at times, dissatisfaction, etc. - and especially the knowledge that it gets worse from here. also the temptation to give up

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sounds like you guys need a hobby
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EmanuelaOrlandi posted:
Just accept that y'all aren't happy because you're losers not because of some existential bullshit like you're going on about, and you'll be a lot happier.

agreed

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germanjoey posted:
sounds like you guys need a hobby

i have one! i write, and play sports, and music sometimes, and other kool stuff!! but people hat emy writing, obviously....

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I play banjo do u guys want 2 hear a recording of me playing banjo?
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germanjoey posted:
sounds like you guys need a hobby



Does smoking count?

Making glib remarks on the internet?

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penitent
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Ironicwarcriminal posted:

Impper posted:

Ironicwarcriminal posted:

deadken posted:
im growing to realise that happiness doesnt really exist. by any objective standard my life is going really well & i wouldnt change a thing about it really, but still im not happy

But if your life is going well and you wouldn't change it, doesn't that imply some level of happiness?

i think there are times i'm very happy, beating somebody in basketball for instance (or more specifically doing well in a team context), having good conversations, meeting somebody and hitting it off, giving somebody an orgasm or conversely somebody making me come, things like that. then there's the rest which is utter shit

Yeah all those peaks are great I agree, but is the rest of it really “utter shit”? I mean I know they say that 90% of life in tedium but I’ve kinda made my peace with tedium once I realized that the great eternally-and-constantly-rewarding-life-promises of the capitalist hologram were largely manufactured.

It helps to be able to find joy in a sunny day, a smile from a pretty cool, the heady drag of the day's first cigarette....

If I could drive maybach’s around all day, take coke, and have women want to fuck me on sight I probably would do it and it probably would make me happier, I’m no rick ross or kim jong-un though



i take coke and have women want to fuck me on sight and after the initial thrill wears off it just becomes another type of tedium

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penitent
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my current hobby is Getting Built. after years of basically neglecting my body and doing weird shit to my mind im going full mishima, lifting weights, doin pressups and squats and shit, its been like two weeks but already the change is notable, like before my biceps had atrophied into lil beansprout things, now already theyre gettin kinda acceptable sized, shit owns, everyone should do it, and the post-exercise endorphin rush..... fuck sex ima just do pressups all night
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you mean pushups? i can do one armed pushups, and an approximation of a one-armed pullup. really impreesses the lAYdEEz. my sort-of friend had this girl he was kind of seeing, and we were hanging out with some people, got into an argument about "manly shit," and she started talking about pullups, so, my friend busted 5. then i busted 10 or 12 of these (not genuine one arms but still)



she fucked me later that night lMAO

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happiness is knowing when the diaper is full
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penitent
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yeah thats the one....my pushup skills are still weak as hell but im improving, mostly cos ive been working out like a fuckin maniac, i wanna do it all, one armed, those clapping pushup things, the other thing where you lift your feet off the ground and just stay there waiting for people to be impressed, all of it
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Yeah the post-workout endorphin thing is tight... better than any drug imo. I need to start going back to the gym. I think I'll try to this week.

Impper post that ridiculous workout routine you put on LF once with like holding urself sideways on a bar and all this shit that didn't use weights I wanna be able to do that stuff.
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man i don't really save that shit. i still can't do a proper flag lol. i was on the verge of it but quit with the hardcore bodyweight shit for basketball. jesus god i need to quit playing basketball, it's making me actively weak
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Impper posted:
you mean pushups? i can do one armed pushups, and an approximation of a one-armed pullup. really impreesses the lAYdEEz. my sort-of friend had this girl he was kind of seeing, and we were hanging out with some people, got into an argument about "manly shit," and she started talking about pullups, so, my friend busted 5. then i busted 10 or 12 of these (not genuine one arms but still)



she fucked me later that night lMAO



that was a bit mean to your sort-of-friend.....you're the patrice to his michel.....

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penitent
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when i first read sun and steel i was like.... this is exactly what i need to do, still it took me five months to actually do it because im me
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yeah thats the one....my pushup skills are still weak as hell but im improving, mostly cos ive been working out like a fuckin maniac, i wanna do it all, one armed, those clapping pushup things, the other thing where you lift your feet off the ground and just stay there waiting for people to be impressed, all of it

try the kobe suicide pushup

Among a dozen other drills, Bryant does suicide push-ups. At the top of the pushup, he launches himself off the mat so hard that both his feet come off the ground and his hands slap his pecs. He does three sets of seven of these. This makes me turn away and whimper softly.



these are actually easier than they sound

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Nippon
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work out more.
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Kurdt
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Impper posted:
my sort-of friend had this girl he was kind of seeing

contemporary_relationships.txt

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penitent
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yeah im only doing bodyweight, apart from the biceps where i'm lifting gramsci's prison notebooks..... i cant afford weights or a gym membership lol
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I consider my body like Lenin did his, a mere vessel with which to facilitate Doing Thangs to the world, but i guess if people wanna embalm me after i'm dead then that's cool too
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Ironicwarcriminal posted:
that was a bit mean to your sort-of-friend.....you're the patrice to his michel.....

eh, he got over it

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deadken posted:
yeah im only doing bodyweight, apart from the biceps where i'm lifting gramsci's prison notebooks..... i cant afford weights or a gym membership lol

my entire workout right now is body weight, check out that convict conditioning book if you haven't, about 65% of my workout is that, the other 35% holdover shit from what i was doing before the book. the core exercises are particularly good in there

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Impper posted:



I used to do the clap pushups from Taxi Driver but I broke my wrist and sometimes now they make it sore. I don't lift weights but I ride my bike at least 15 or 20 miles a day...

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you guys are all sis boom bah about being inspired by sun and steel but no doubt if you had the chance to fly in a fighter plane you'd turn it down out of a superior sense of being Beyond These Technofetishist Autisms Feh
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lenin could do that because lenin was not a man, he was a ghost, a puppet of history, an alien. i am a man and as such i need to become my own body
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penitent
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Impper posted:

deadken posted:
yeah im only doing bodyweight, apart from the biceps where i'm lifting gramsci's prison notebooks..... i cant afford weights or a gym membership lol

my entire workout right now is body weight, check out that convict conditioning book if you haven't, about 65% of my workout is that, the other 35% holdover shit from what i was doing before the book. the core exercises are particularly good in there



lol thats what im using, i couldn't find bronson's one