tpaine posted:

enayeneh posted:

eff that son what if my momma dies. i dont know about you but i love my mom. looks like tpaine is a mom hater. and can you believe it??? right before mothers day???


mines dead.

well that sounds awful and if my mom ever died id probably kill myself. i hope that this makes you feel better. in some way. i know it does so you are welcome.

tpaine posted:

enayeneh posted:

tpaine posted:

enayeneh posted:

eff that son what if my momma dies. i dont know about you but i love my mom. looks like tpaine is a mom hater. and can you believe it??? right before mothers day???


mines dead.

well that sounds awful and if my mom ever died id probably kill myself. i hope that this makes you feel better. in some way. i know it does so you are welcome.

both my parents died years ago, you get over it

thats a relief (i guess) because to be perfectly honest anytime i think about either of my parents dying i have a panic attack so i suppose ive got something to look forward to after all! thanks tpaine

swampman posted:

I dont die

I died. I'm dead.

getfiscal posted:

employment sounds horrific. i usually found incredibly easy jobs to do (mostly independent office work) and i still had constant panic attacks. when i woke up today i had a long panic attack about the idea of returning to work soon. fortunately i calmed myself down and ended up reading a third of a book about toussaint l'ouverture, which is good because i haven't read much over the past year or so.

i am literally an insane person so i don't talk about this enough but i actually think of my career goals in terms of socialism. like i believe that you have to "serve the people" and i try to think of how i can contribute the most to global revolution. oh my god i feel so ridiculous saying that. but another part of me was trained to believe that only business/professional success matters. and i think a lot of young people think in similar terms but just find different bourgeois ways of coping with it - academia, NGO complex, aid work, social work, writing professionally, stuff like that. so i spend a lot of time trying to think of some way to sort of reintegrate into society but retain a radical perspective and do something worthwhile in terms of building the sort of society i'd want. and also just doing it in a healthy way so that i don't just hurt myself or something.

i sort of know what things i want to be competent in, and have some idea of how i could contribute, but i haven't been able to convince myself that there will be a concrete career built out of it, which makes the whole thing sort of feel like a leap into the dark. so instead i keep thinking in terms of studying history, like taking the things i'm interested in and focusing on their development (like, Chinese economic history), rather than like comparative socialist economics itself, which is basically nowhere in mainstream economics departments. and i would vastly prefer to be an economist, but i don't know if i can grind through all the mainstream right-wing stuff.

anyway i applied to university last week for a second degree and that's got me nervous but we'll see what happens.

my advice- get 3+ degrees and $300k in expensive private debt then move to south korea or similar and live a simple life teaching english, safe in the knowledge that you did your part to tear down capitalism