roseweird posted:glomper_stomper posted:what was your poison, roseweird
my parents got me a super nintendo when i was 6, so all the dumb games that were popular then, i guess. then later civilization 2 and mostly alpha centauri, and lots of bad rpgs (except for chrono trigger they are all bad) as a teenager. as a child mostly i remember having already read all my books, and playing mario for hours until it got dark while one room over my mother smoked cigarettes, took benzos, and passed out watching judge judy, or not judge judy, but whatever was on daytime tv back then, i forget, because the last time i saw her she had tivo and was watching judge judy marathons and reruns so that's all i can picture her watching anymore.
even if i'd had more or better books i don't know if i'd have read them, since i just found electronics extremely addicting and my parents kept buying me more and more games, and in any case i had no intellectual role models, or anyone who could have guided my reading or impressed on me the importance and rewards of self-cultivation. i guess we all wish we had wiser teachers, i think i was raised by people who actually hated learning though. anyway now i frequently see 3 and 4 year olds with their faces already stuck in ipads, ignoring everyone around them, poking at some terrible game on the thing, the parent usually nearby doing the same thing with their own device, or just ignoring them in some other way. it's distressing to me. maybe that's silly. i guess i want to blame this technology/medium itself, because it seems druglike, and would you give a child addicting drugs?? whatever, technology and games themselves are fine, i'm just angry at my trashy family and taking it out on poor innocent video games
tv shows are bad too ofc, i don't feel bad about them personally in the same way though for some reason. they are dumb and they dumb us down collectively, for me bad pop culture was my only connection to my peers though, and i imagine if i hadn't watched dumb popular tv shows i would just have been even weirder than i was. anyway i was pretty embarrassed at writing a defense of south park, of all things, here, and when everyone justly mocked me for it i had to ask myself why have i faithfully watched this stupid cartoon for so long? i don't usually even particularly enjoy it, i just feel weirdly nostalgic about it. when it came out i wanted to watch it because my friends at school were watching it, so i watched it, and we talked about it at school, how yes, we all watched this cartoon, did you hear the funny joke? haha *repeats joke* did you see how kenny died? haha i know dude. you bastards!! ha ha. yeah. this is a pathetic, sleazy memory of a grimy suburban place i would rather forget, or substitute with some beautiful and better and dignified memory instead, but i have not had a beautiful or dignified life, and these are the memories i have to work with, and this is the last time i clearly remember being a boy, with boys, talking about something boys talked about. why does it matter? i did not even particularly like these boys and i have forgotten most of them, they were the only friends i had though. they stopped being my friends soon after when i became an anorexic femme weirdo, i kept watching this awful cartoon, though, i guess. i don't know what that means. i feel like i have to explain myself for some reason right now.
whatever, sorry for this pathetic and childish post. i can't sleep, i don't know why but i've been up for a couple of days. i've most of them staring at this bad computer. forgive this maudlin and self-indulgent post please. i quit playing computer games completely recently, or i wouldn't normally be giving this so much thought. it is ridiculous and shameful what a major part they had in my life. many of my earliest and strongest memories are of playing video games. this is repulsive, i would purge these memories if i could, and remember instead faces of friends and family, places worth seeing, the learning of things worth knowing. my parents gave up their religions and dropped out of college and stopped reading books and got addicted to prescription drugs and had a child and bought it video games. why?? i can't understand it all. anyway i am going to permanently cut all contact with my family soon (i mean, for other reasons, not because of video games), so i am in the past a bit just now. again, forgive me, next time i'm in such a mood i will just open a livejournal
roseweird posted:but thank you for quoting my entire post immediately to ensure that i could not edit it out in shame
no problem comrade.
Lykourgos posted:Castle Adventure on a Hercules graphics card, the height of gaming
fuck YOU!! That did NOT exist in Ancient Lands
roseweird posted:glomper_stomper posted:what was your poison, roseweird
my parents got me a super nintendo when i was 6, so all the dumb games that were popular then, i guess. then later civilization 2 and mostly alpha centauri, and lots of bad rpgs (except for chrono trigger they are all bad) as a teenager. as a child mostly i remember having already read all my books, and playing mario for hours until it got dark while one room over my mother smoked cigarettes, took benzos, and passed out watching judge judy, or not judge judy, but whatever was on daytime tv back then, i forget, because the last time i saw her she had tivo and was watching judge judy marathons and reruns so that's all i can picture her watching anymore.
even if i'd had more or better books i don't know if i'd have read them, since i just found electronics extremely addicting and my parents kept buying me more and more games, and in any case i had no intellectual role models, or anyone who could have guided my reading or impressed on me the importance and rewards of self-cultivation. i guess we all wish we had wiser teachers, i think i was raised by people who actually hated learning though. anyway now i frequently see 3 and 4 year olds with their faces already stuck in ipads, ignoring everyone around them, poking at some terrible game on the thing, the parent usually nearby doing the same thing with their own device, or just ignoring them in some other way. it's distressing to me. maybe that's silly. i guess i want to blame this technology/medium itself, because it seems druglike, and would you give a child addicting drugs?? whatever, technology and games themselves are fine, i'm just angry at my trashy family and taking it out on poor innocent video games
tv shows are bad too ofc, i don't feel bad about them personally in the same way though for some reason. they are dumb and they dumb us down collectively, for me bad pop culture was my only connection to my peers though, and i imagine if i hadn't watched dumb popular tv shows i would just have been even weirder than i was. anyway i was pretty embarrassed at writing a defense of south park, of all things, here, and when everyone justly mocked me for it i had to ask myself why have i faithfully watched this stupid cartoon for so long? i don't usually even particularly enjoy it, i just feel weirdly nostalgic about it. when it came out i wanted to watch it because my friends at school were watching it, so i watched it, and we talked about it at school, how yes, we all watched this cartoon, did you hear the funny joke? haha *repeats joke* did you see how kenny died? haha i know dude. you bastards!! ha ha. yeah. this is a pathetic, sleazy memory of a grimy suburban place i would rather forget, or substitute with some beautiful and better and dignified memory instead, but i have not had a beautiful or dignified life, and these are the memories i have to work with, and this is the last time i clearly remember being a boy, with boys, talking about something boys talked about. why does it matter? i did not even particularly like these boys and i have forgotten most of them, they were the only friends i had though. they stopped being my friends soon after when i became an anorexic femme weirdo, i kept watching this awful cartoon, though, i guess. i don't know what that means. i feel like i have to explain myself for some reason right now.
whatever, sorry for this pathetic and childish post. i can't sleep, i don't know why but i've been up for a couple of days. i've most of them staring at this bad computer. forgive this maudlin and self-indulgent post please. i quit playing computer games completely recently, or i wouldn't normally be giving this so much thought. it is ridiculous and shameful what a major part they had in my life. many of my earliest and strongest memories are of playing video games. this is repulsive, i would purge these memories if i could, and remember instead faces of friends and family, places worth seeing, the learning of things worth knowing. my parents gave up their religions and dropped out of college and stopped reading books and got addicted to prescription drugs and had a child and bought it video games. why?? i can't understand it all. anyway i am going to permanently cut all contact with my family soon (i mean, for other reasons, not because of video games), so i am in the past a bit just now. again, forgive me, next time i'm in such a mood i will just open a livejournal
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