#9841
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Paranoia_(role-playing_game)
#9842
WoD
#9843
a little game called Sexy Table.. meow!!!!
#9844
i did 24 break detentions and two after schools this week, and handed out over 50 achievement points, an irritating student told me i was a good teacher because i can explain things, i raised my voice to a whole class only once, i taught multiple lessons with minimal/no powerpoint or planning, i marked two sets of books in detail - and the two girls who forgot to hand their books in pleaded with me to mark their work, they crave feedback so much its sad that there is no time to give all the students the feedback they deserve, i teach my middle set classes like top sets and make my top sets crunch complex physics problems in absolute silence, my year 7 form is the best on the corridor and they know it, children say hello to me wherever i go in school, ive only been doing this for a short time but i am very good at it, i am in a great mood

edit: also i overheard one of my students saying to another about some other students "they're so cringe, imagine wasting time during a lesson"

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#9845
/me puts an apple on teacher's desk :)
#9846
Left the middle kingdom and returned to turtle island. I miss catching up with my Rhizzpals
#9847
i got confirmation that i had inspired a child today. feels good.
#9848
been practicing my cursive writing. kids slack jawed, falling off their chairs in awe i seamlessly form my letters on the board
#9849
all this handwritten work and without fail i still think ctrl-z almost every time i make a mistake, followed by a whiplash moment counter-disassociation similar to panic, complete with mild vasoconstriction, as i snap back to reality. mistake anxiety is real and im sure computers have added to it
#9850
I'm spending a lot of money to take my dog to the woods. Please pray for my dog's success at interacting with the woods.
#9851

swampman posted:

I'm spending a lot of money to take my dog to the woods. Please pray for my dog's success at interacting with the woods.



#9852

tears posted:

all this handwritten work and without fail i still think ctrl-z almost every time i make a mistake, followed by a whiplash moment counter-disassociation similar to panic, complete with mild vasoconstriction, as i snap back to reality. mistake anxiety is real and im sure computers have added to it



the part of my brain that uses the lasso tool in photoshop occasionally tingles when I am attempting to visually parse something; non-ideal brain design imo.

#9853
those kinds of automatic thoughts (pre-thoughts?) are interesting to me. when i was having that eye problem i talked about a few years ago, every time it made life difficult, there was something similar: a quiet hindbrain insistence to "change the channel," "swap the lens," or something like that. each time, i'd have to pull that mental reflex into my conscious thoughts and finally reflect that, no, i am stuck in this lifelong meat parcel & just gotta deal with impairment
#9854
notes from the education front line.

as i gain more and more experience i am more and more discarding powerpoint. fuck that shit. i hate it so much. yet its how everyone did it in training, and how everyone does it in schools these days. for those of you like me who had your school education a while ago you might be amazed to hear that many lessons these days are literal powerpoint presentations. to give an indication of this, a few weeks ago i wrote up some physics problems on the board for some children. they literally did not understand. they had never done a problem which was not worksheet, textbook or powerpoint slide. a child literally asked me "what's that for".

powerpoint is this curse that hangs over education. all the other teachers teach with powerpoint. i will not. (exceptions: displaying photo-montages and so on)

so what to do if there is no powerpoint? obviously it has to come from your head. many of my lessons include 1-2 slides with the mandatory title +LOs, and maybe some recall questions. but after that i just freehand it. i have found the key is to reinforce expectations by doing my snarky voice "hell, if im writing it down it must be important", "im not writing for my benefit", "if its on the board its in your books" - and working at pace. if you can get to the point where students are essentially doing what you are doing then you're there - if they're writing there is no time for disruption, because if they stop then they will fall behind. live-drawn diagrams which span the board narrated and labelled are worth a thousand shitty powerpoint slides

combine this with a) summary + question booklets so i have a pre-made bank of fuck tons of questions for them, and b) a digital visualiser, so i can shove finished work under it, because you know your gal tears spends her evenings filling her exercise books with model answers to every damn question she ever askes her students

had a year 7 say to me, "Miss, no one else writes on the board like you do."

im dead. chalk and talk until i die.

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#9855
had flash backs to one of the classrooms i did my training in: it did not have a whiteboard. makes me break out in cold sweat. But for most teachers i see its the opposite. the lack of a pc + projector would just floor them. because it did for me. the idea of the computer not working was enough to induce mad anxiety. but really the lack of a board curtails your ability to improvise, while the lack of a projector curtails your ability to deliver a particular type of pre-planned content

now, i have been thinking and partially my growing love of the board comes from my love of control and authority, and my desire, out of the knowledge of my own expertise as a teacher and as a subject specialist, for everyone to be paying attention to me. to control the flow. ask yourself, when you are teaching with powerpoint who is the teacher: You? or your slides? What is the student's attention mainly focused on, you? or your slides? how does that effect students perceptions of you?

but its more than that - its my desire to show off, to demonstrate the work with a high level of mastery. and to work alongside the students. i am a firm believer that seeing a teacher working alongside students motivates a student to work

i attended two courses a couple of years ago. One on astrophysics, and one on elementary calculus. In the astrophysics course there was a lot of PowerPoint, a lot of text. I remember some things but I don't remember the teacher much. in the calculus series the teacher had nothing but a sheaf of notes and a white board. Everything was done live. i remember him a lot. i wanted to be like him, able to effortlessly differentiate in real time in front of an audience

by minimising powerpoint you should in theory maximise students attention towards yourself. When direct instruction is occurring, you position yourself as both the leader of, and the the main conduit of, education; rather than the powerpoint being the conduit, with you there to facilitate it. nOw that does powerpointers a bit of disservice because you can deliver great lessons with it. but i want my students to be focused on me, what i am saying, what i am doing, what i am drawing, what i am writing. I don't want challenges to my authority as a teacher, i don't want to be undermined by a machine

if i could only have 1 thing it would be boards, so many, on rollers:
#9856
i realise the above post might be a bit unsettling to some. but for those who have never seen both sides, or haven't considered school outside of their own experience as a student: schools are a place where power is overtly wielded, constantly.

nobody really talks about it directly, they talk about teacher presence, they talk about behaviour management, they talk about discipline, rules, student buy-in. but really its just the exercise of power - the ability to compel another to doing something, the ability to exercise your will over someone else. a teacher puts children to work after all, day in, day out. of course the work they do is rewarding, because its educational, valuable, and interesting, and i am a charismatic, self-confident, and knowledgeable teacher. but you are still wielding power over others. i'm quite willing to use that to ensure my students learn as much science as they can.

you can probably tell that i am trying to develop my understanding as i gain more experience, because after all, practice is higher than theoretical knowledge. the reason this aspect is so interesting to me is two fold 1) because it is talked about so little in schools at a theoretical level, unlike say pedagogical practice, or how students learn. can you imagine if i started talking about the "exercise of power" to my co-workers! and 2) because i have experienced the effects first hand of how the proper and considered use of power in all its forms - from coercive to charismatic - results in overall better lessons, calmer corridors and classrooms, safer environments, less bullying, better outcomes, better student-teacher relationships and better learning by my students.

my thoughts will continue to change with time, and they have up until now. if anyone disagrees or has questions please do ask/speak up :)
#9857
*raises hand*

do you see this continual flux of your ideas as significant enough to preclude comfort with forming them up into a single front-page essay in the near future?
#9858

tears posted:

if anyone disagrees or has questions please do ask/speak up



i have a question, from your posts you seem to be very committed to doing right by your students to the extent you can, but in what ways do you find that you are deeply limited by the education system itself? Either the curriculum, the administration, the kids' home lives that affect their abilities in the classroom? How do you deal with that?

Also if you're committed to weilding that power for a good purpose, do you think there would be situations where you might defend that against the interests of your students?

thanks, very much enjoy reading your thoughts

#9859

marknat posted:

i have a question, from your posts you seem to be very committed to doing right by your students to the extent you can, but in what ways do you find that you are deeply limited by the education system itself? Either the curriculum, the administration, the kids' home lives that affect their abilities in the classroom? How do you deal with that?


oh of course, i am hampered by the system at every turn. at the macro level capitalism itself limits what i can do - similar perhaps to a public defender. this operates both in the students existing within the wage labour system, and in the realm of reification, in what is normalised about the capitalist education system which really really should not be. but what gets me most is that there is no spirit of education, no vision of a better future, no drive, no glorious future to work towards, no collective will to build socialism, no communist future on the horizon to inspire. literally no collectivity. the absolute bleakness of the future under capitalism permeates through education like a thick black oil sticking to the students, sucking out their youthful exuberance. i don't think it is possible to overestimate what damage this does. my charges are utterly lost in a world of shit and there is nothing positive i can point to and say "that's why we do this".

as far as the national curriculum goes, its not actually bad: issues arise in pre-packaged syllabuses with associated schemes of work which are basically the bane of encouraging teacher self-improvement. generally the syllabus is content heavy, but i am currently a "neo-traditionalist" with a rather dim view of poorly thought out "guide on the side" inquiry based learning. but, and its a big but, there is a lack of vision in how to actually teach the syllabus. i am fortunate that i am in a school with a hands off Head of Department so i have a lot of autonomy in how i plan and deliver lessons and even module schemes of work.

and then at the administrative level i am hampered by, in no particular order: crushing workloads of administrative tasks that i try to shirk but it is relentless, idiots who think they know best, lack of support over behaviour issues, lack of vision, low expectations, other teachers lack of confidence in their own power, other teachers lack of faith in their students, too many emails, too many check ups, too many drop ins, too few staff in general and understaffed on top of that, poor retention, too little money, too many hours.

as for the children's home life: barriers are everywhere, awful situations, domestic abuse, poverty, low aspirations, lack of parental faith, harassment by law enforcement, the drug trade and other lumpen activities in the area, homes with no books, language barriers, parents with low levels of education who can provide little academic support, overworked parents, parental illness, and children with caring responsibilities, overcrowding and lack of space to study, large increases in the price of food and heat, high levels of depression and anxiety leading to absenteeism and school refusal, general level of absenteeism due to low parental buy-in to education, truancy, and so on.

in short this system is absolutely fucked

marknat posted:

Also if you're committed to weilding that power for a good purpose, do you think there would be situations where you might defend that against the interests of your students?


now thats a good question. well, if the red guards denounce me i will defend my methods, and the need for discipline in education.

Constantignoble posted:

*raises hand*

do you see this continual flux of your ideas as significant enough to preclude comfort with forming them up into a single front-page essay in the near future?


perhaps

#9860
although different teaching context, i had also found powerpoint to be insufferably rigid and developed a workflow using obs that allowed me to improvise; create 'slides' in realtime, bring in pre-curated content in a responsive nonlinear fashion, seek out other assets online if needed without obvious distractions/interruptions, etc. i imagine young streamer-damaged minds could potentially find it more engaging as they are attuned to that visually. perhaps the last thing you have time for is learning new tools, but you can pm me if that sounds useful.

really appreciate your posts on this btw.
#9861

lo posted:

what ttrpgs do rhizzoners play.



I'm running a Discord-based Mage the Ascension game and playing in a Discord-based Pathfinder 2 play-by-post. both set in the modern day, the first in 2000s san diego and the second in today's NYC but with a magical underground. Just completed a Thirsty Sword Lesbians game and we're talking about running Coyote & Crow

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#9862
Advanced Dungeons & Dragons 2nd Edition. Majority of next game’s players have posted on tHE r H i z z o n E.
#9863
student asked me if i had adhd today. i took that as high praise.
#9864
ok. ive finally done it. i have attained my lesser grail. i taught a good lesson. at last. ive done it. and now ive done one, i can do another. and another.

here is a good lesson:
1. Start: lesson starts with students entering in (almost) silence - im not there with this class but i will get there. Strong routines don't make a lesson, but poor routines break lessons, even for "good classes". Play no favorites. do not let your students slack off.
2. Recap of previous lesson: under the visualiser is a hand drawn graph on graph paper. i drew it during break. it is a distance time graph. different parts of the graph are labelled with letters. next to the graph, also hand written are a list of questions about acceleration, constant velocity and so on. students students given time limit. question answers and label under visualiser. Ask for quick hands up who got X, Y etc to make sure majority are not completely mia. identify misconceptions and re-explain. Rational: students must recall prior knowledge in order to move to long term memory.
3. Resources: students to turn to page X of booklet: velocity time graphs. rationale: booklets are the damn best.
4. Lesson body: open my exercise book under the visualiser, with the title and date already written and underlined. "Student X, read# page Y of your booklet aloud." Student reads a few lines "Good. What are we learning today?" *pause* "Student Z?" We're going to write some notes now. I will write in my book and you will write in yours. rationale: A) I do, you do. B). seeing a teacher work their ass off motivates students C). me writing sets a reasonable pace with absolute control over that D). if students are writing they are not misbehaving. E) "Just fucking tell 'em" - seriously, fuck your progressive learning about making small children try and guess whats in my head, guess what the answer is. i will not! i will tell them what they need to know!. I will tell them explicitly - "this is what you need to know, this will be tested."
5. Questioning: Pepper with questions to gauge understanding rationale: check if they are following on with you.
6. Practice: Independent practice of what we went through using booklet questions. rationale: practice practice practice
7. Mark: students mark their own work rationale: pace, speed, workload, direct feedback. Either ask students for answers, or just read them out from your book where you have done the work. This depends on difficulty. Ask for hands up who got question X correct, Question Y. re-teach/model difficult questions during marking. rationale: instant feedback, experience success, check for understanding, re-teach
8. Next topic: calculating acceleration from velocity time graphs - repeat as above introduction - direct instruction - annotate graphs in booklet under visualiser.
9. Modelling: Model model model, who cares if you over-teach something, do worked examples and do more. write them exactly as you want them to lay them out in their books, make them write down each one, explain your reasoning, how you got each bit, write out your variables, write out your equation, show them enough times +1. rationale: A) Modelling works: do as I do. B) over-teaching a new concept is a lesser sin to underteaching a new concept. sure your brightest student might pick it up with one example but what are the rest of the class going to do once you set them working. fuck your differentiated worksheets.
10. Repeat steps 6 and 7.

* deal with behaviour issues instantly, issue swift corrections, explain actions quickly and link to impact on whole class. stick rigidly to a 1 warning 2 detention 3 on call system. keep track of these on a seating plan in front of you.

if they don't leave your lesson exhausted its not a good lesson. if students aren't putting their hands up to ask questions which build on what you have taught them its not a good lesson. This is when i truely realised it was a good lesson, i had multiple people put their hands up to ask advanced questions based on taking the content to the next level. thats when i know id done it. id taught a good lesson.

no worksheets, no powerpoint, no written lesson planning or wasting time making powerpoints, no pointless engagers, no videos, no scavenger hunts, no dumbing down, no guess whats in my head. everyone in rows working hard. tell 'em what they need to know. nothing is fun until it is easy, and nothing is easy without practice

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#9865
A few months back I was talking to a guy at work about the abortion debate in the US and I said facetiously 'maybe the compromise position is that we admit it's murder but keep doing it anyway' and just the other day I overheard him saying it to someone else like it was an edgy heterodox insight. I'm gonna kill myself
#9866
I gotta go back to school to become a teacher or something
#9867

gay_swimmer posted:

I gotta go back to school to become a teacher or something


and my axe

#9868
today i was in the section of a book shop where they have all the marxist books and there were two guys having a conversation where one of them said that, of trotsky, stalin and lenin his favourite was trotsky and that he would probably be a trotskyist if he was a marxist. needless to say i cleft him in twain with my katana and the whole book shop started applauding
#9869

cars posted:

Advanced Dungeons & Dragons 2nd Edition. Majority of next game’s players have posted on tHE r H i z z o n E.



Ufufu, we can talk about this later in discord but i will reveal to you now... ALL of next game's players of have posted on tHE rHizzonE. >:)

#9870

tears posted:

i had multiple people put their hands up to ask advanced questions based on taking the content to the next level. thats when i know id done it. id taught a good lesson.

no worksheets, no powerpoint, no written lesson planning or wasting time making powerpoints, no pointless engagers, no videos, no scavenger hunts, no dumbing down, no guess whats in my head. everyone in rows working hard. tell 'em what they need to know. nothing is fun until it is easy, and nothing is easy without practice



You are doing really inspiring stuff out there. Keep up the great work. There's nothing like having a teacher who cares and tries their best, lotta kids never forget that.



This is literally you now. This passionate anime schoolteacher. It's you.

#9871
I hated my AP english teacher for making us learn latin root words. Now I'm very grateful after entering the medical field.
#9872

realsubtle posted:

Ufufu, we can talk about this later in discord but i will reveal to you now... ALL of next game's players of have posted on tHE rHizzonE. >:)



0_0 omg…….

#9873

cars posted:

just ate the last reese's peanut butter cup in the shape of a pumpkin. Nature is healing



two left & two days to go……

#9874
My mother-in-law was staying with us so out of respect and the desire to not have a tedious discussion about it, I removed the bust of Mao from the mantle above the fireplace and put it in my office. Anyway she's leaving today so Mao is coming back out
#9875
Mother-in-Law: "Ive been hearing so much about this Maoism stuff lately... I want to get into it myself, but i just feel so out of my element. If only someone i was close to would sit me down and explain it to me so i could get into Maoism too!"

Source: She actually said that
#9876
I've been undergoing various types of chemotherapy for just under a year now and I only just found out they don't have any fruit juice in the wards anymore. they got rid of it the juice at some point as a cost saving measure. what the fuck
#9877

lo posted:

he would probably be a trotskyist if he was a marxist



i've got good news for him about the prerequisites

#9878

littlegreenpills posted:

I've been undergoing various types of chemotherapy for just under a year now and I only just found out they don't have any fruit juice in the wards anymore. they got rid of it the juice at some point as a cost saving measure. what the fuck



I've been taking my dad to chemo sessions and the shit sounds boring as hell. Hope they at least reinstate juice soon friend.

#9879

littlegreenpills posted:

they got rid of it the juice at some point as a cost saving measure


this is what is particularly wrong with the usa medical system

#9880

gay_swimmer posted:

My mother-in-law was staying with us so out of respect and the desire to not have a tedious discussion about it, I removed the bust of Mao from the mantle above the fireplace and put it in my office.


could have just hidden it in the fridge